tpjcccccccc
went ta tpjc today!HAZ.
to study mind u.
even went to the library ok.
and i finished!!!!!!
ONE HUI OF HONG LOU MENG.
hahahahahah.
then. shopped for my boyish slippers.
then................. water rise.
cant stand gortan.
20 MINS INFRONT OF A SHOP THINKING WADTA EAT.
kill me pls.
but still.
hahahaha. he is so much dar happier compared to his emo first 3 mths days.
SO THATS GOOD.
and. first 3 mths.
was heaven.
:)
GORTAN HAS BROWN HAIR. V BROWN. I VANT ALSO.
SULKS.
i was in my one n only tpjc pe tee.
haz.
gortan is short. really.
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mr canot-imagine-him-without-hair-cannot-b-prom-king-top-five-think-v-long-wad-to-eat-hyperactive-tall-slinty-eyed-emo-boy.
but thanks to him at least i did SOME work. and i must say his art is WOAH.
rahhhh
8:44 PM
NAUTICAL delight madness.
iwan
my
nautical
delight.
*pouts.
*hints hints
*GRINS.WIDELY.
SHOPPING. was ooh lala. thoguh my legs ached. but. i juz havta say. I LOVE MARINA! dum dum dum dum di dum. zara. topshop. miss selfridge. adidas. love~love~
FARLULA. polkadottedbags. ROCKVINTAGETEES. belts.
wants wants wants.
eek. reminds me of econs.
okok. i will study. wo hui de ok.
CHACHOCHEEYOMEIDUSEEYAGEHYO.
DAE. BOYONGGOSHIPTACEEYA.
CHAYEHMOJISHO.
it was nice meetin miss has her own style n attitude xian.
still as individualistic as eva.
:)
pretty.
rahhhh
12:18 AM
Monday, May 29, 2006
Drops of Jupiter
TrainNow that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey
Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there
Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey, hey
Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there
Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way
rahhhh
1:02 AM
Sunday, May 28, 2006
i love candy.
But theres a danger in loving somebody too much,and its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust.
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.
And like a fool who will never see the truth, I keep thinking somethings gonna change.
o wells.
TC STALL WAS GREAT FUN!
HAHAHAHAHAHAH. OK. I REALLY THINK THE YR ONES R SUCH A GREA BATCH TA HAV.
and yes. y in the world did they havta announce my name thru the pa system! rahness.
FINDS A HOLE TA BURY MYSELF.
i love how the juniors think bout everyone. work together. everyones equal. they truly will b one great team in the future i must say. :) and i love em for it. for their enthu-ness, for their weird jokes n songs. n their lets-jus-do-it attitude.
going ard ta sell stuff was like woah. hahahahaha. I LOVE THE GUY WHO BOT THE WHOLE PLATE FRM ME. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. and no not chunkiat. the OTHER guy. yayness. though he seriously reminded me of sumone who cmae frm tpjc rather then ya boring ole tj.
and dere were the lovely asses who got forced ta buy stuff over n over n over again. hahahaha. simply coz they were our frens, fren's drens or wadeva. HOHO.
can i juz say again how much i adore the yr ones coz they r so damn united. :)
and i love the cheerings after ending the stall before settin the stall n all. it bonds it really does.
WE MADE PROFITS. hahahahaha.
thru price discrimination i must add. haz.
GREAT SINGAPORE SALE CUMIN! yayness. shop shop shop.
JUNECAMP cumin!!! FUN FUN FUN.
thank god for the lil things in life he bestows upon me now n then.
those dat make me smile when im alone.
grin when im down.
and being overwhelmed with tears when i get reminded.
there beside you, where I used to lay.
im happy. for now. really happy.
YINGXIA~~~ i toked to shou shou leh. hahahahahahahahaa.
okok. went for the superband thingy today.
not bad i guess.
the wayang was shocking i swear. forgt which grp was it.
and we got free hairdye hahahahah. HOUYU.
does dat mean i can hav brown hair for the upcomin hols! haz.
o whee.
so looking forward ta june camp. i love my grp!
hahahahaha.
*shakes my ass like gordon.
neva. neva. neva judge a book by its cover.
i take comfort in knowing im with the majority.
yes. i am not individualistic.
but so. im happy with where i am now.
tution was haha-ness.
it made me conclude that BERYL SOH here though losing her wallet, will b moving to kansas city after she has her first child. IM A SOON TO BE QUAKER. :)
quack quack here, quack quack dere. here quack tere quack, everywhere quack quack.
eh sounds like serphy.
haz.
O WELLS.
god bless us. each and everyone.
rahhhh
12:17 AM
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
WADS BEH'S FAV SONG?
THIS IS TO EXPLAIN Y I WAS SO DMANIT HAPPY YESTERDAY THAT I CRIED LIKE HELL.QE IS OVER. WITH A BLAST.
EMCEE-ING WAS GREAT FUN.
I SAW HOW OUR YR ONES GAV THEIR ALL.
I SAW HOW PPL ARD ME WORKED THEIR ASS OFF.
I REMEMBER HOW THE SKIT PPL REHEARSED EVERYDAY AFTER SCH.
I TOT OF HOW WE CAME TOGETHER WITH THE PURPOSE OF MAKING EVRYONE HAV A GOOD TIME N LAUGH.
I TOT OF STEF AND ME 'FIGHTING' FOR HEYUAN N HUITING.
I M GLAD TA SAY THAT FOR ONCE I HAV STOOD UP TO WAD I BELIEVED, N FOUGHT FOR IT.
:)
IM GLAD TA SAY THAT I HAV CUM TO KNOW BOUT MY FELLOW TC PPL MORE. N I FIND MYSELF LOVING EM MORE N MORE.
TAN HEYUAN MR TALL N DELIGHTFUL EMCEE.
MISS SAI KANG WARRIOR.
MR BACKSTAGE.
2 MISS VERY NICE PROGRAMME BOOKLET.
MISS SUPERMODEL WHO NEEDS A WOKERS UNION.
MISS AUNTIE BUNTIE ELLIE.
MISS HAZIE THE ANGEL.
MISS BABA YINGXIA~ THE RATIONAL MIND.
2 OF THE CRANKIEST AV PPL.
ONE BUTT BITCH BLUR KOREAN MAN.
ONE STERN LOOKING BLUR KOREAN WOMAN.
MISS AUNTIE HUITING.
MISS DRAMA MAMA ALIA.
MR SING WITH ME EURASIAN GUY.
MR NO INDIAN ACCENT KUMARAN.
MISS DO THE PROPOSAL HERSELF STEFFY.
MR GIV OUT POINTS LIKE NOBODY BUSINESS HENDRIK.
MISS ZOE TAN THE CALM FORCE.
I LOVE U ALL. I REALLY DO. COZ U HAV SHOWED ME WAD WORKING UR ASS OFF IS LIKE. AND ALWAYS CRACKING ME UP WHEN IM DOWN.
I CRIED LIKE SHIT YESTERDAY. can ya imagine me sayin thanks to everyone n breaking down like u know. as in i started crying when the first person started talking. hahahahaha. ya. then steffy cried. then hazie cried. AND DEY WERE SITTING BESIDE ME. so i cried even more. but im so so so so darn glad ta say. yes. there were screw ups here n there. BUT I HAD A GREAT TIME. n i must really thank tan heyuan for being the one who always knows wads up next. who helped me with my lines n all. and alia. who made me loosen up n joke ard with the kids during qna coz of a sentence she said. "neva mind la. we die, we die together."and dat was wad made qna SO MUCH FUN. coz i had no qualms bout my speech wad i did nd all. AND IM GLAD WE MADE EM SMILE LAUGH AND REALLY ENJOY THE SHOW THE GAMES EVERYTHING.
SO SKIT PPPL! SKIT SKIT SKIT SKIT SKIT!!!!!!!!!!
and. i love the trio to bits although they hav no butt off coz they worked their ass off for qe.
WADS BERYLS FAV SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!
SING IT WITH ME SING FOR THE YEARS. SING FOR THE LAUGHTER AND SING IT FOR THE TEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!
*im on tonight
u know my hips dun lie
and im startin ta feel its right.
:)
i had my share of fun. laughter. peace. and joy.
AND IM LOVING IT!
jcc will b WONDERFUL as well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
rahhhh
10:20 PM
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
HAPPY.
rahhhh
You gave me nothing, now it's all I got
We're one, but we're not the same
Well we, hurt each other
Then we do it again
i think im finally scared now. u think im weak. i think u're wrong.
this aint my life.
wonderwall.
and all the roads we havta walk r winding.
and all the lights that lead us dere r blinding.
there r many things i wld like ta say ta u but i dunno how.
save me.
close ur eyes so u dun feel em.
dey dun needta see u cry.
i heard he sang a lullabye.
i heard he sang it frm his heart.
when i found out, tot i ld die.
because dat lullabye was mine.
i heard he sealed it with a kiss.
actually kissed her cherry lips.
i found dat so hard ta believe.
because his kiss belonged to me.
how cld an angel break my heart.
y din he catch my falling star.
i wish i din wish so hard.
mayb i wished our love apart.
how cld an angel break my heart.
the past is gone.
we've been betrayed.
u're a song.
written by the hands of god.
dun go chasing waterfalls.
pls stick to the rivers and the lakes dat u're used to.
i know dat u're gonna hav it ur way or nth at all.
but i think u're moving too fast.
i want one moment in time.
when i know dat i tot i cld be.
when all of my dreams r a heartbeat away.
n the answers r all up to me.
giv me one moment in time.
when im racing with destiny.
then in that one moment of time.
i wld feel. eternity.
i wish u were here. rahhhh
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
But i'm doin it
It's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret
But i know if i could do it over I would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspoken
What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
And never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do
not seein that lovin you
that’s what I was tryin to do
*theres this song for parts of ur life. and this is so apt for mine. i bet the writer was thinking of me. haz. no la. but. its. really. so very nice. and. so.so.so.apt. rahhhh
rahhhh
10:43 PM
Friday, May 19, 2006
juz when i needed u most.
Well, did I ask too much, more than a lot?You gave me nothing, now it's all I got
We're one, but we're not the same
Well we, hurt each other
Then we do it again
i think im finally scared now. u think im weak. i think u're wrong.
this aint my life.
wonderwall.
and all the roads we havta walk r winding.
and all the lights that lead us dere r blinding.
there r many things i wld like ta say ta u but i dunno how.
save me.
close ur eyes so u dun feel em.
dey dun needta see u cry.
i heard he sang a lullabye.
i heard he sang it frm his heart.
when i found out, tot i ld die.
because dat lullabye was mine.
i heard he sealed it with a kiss.
actually kissed her cherry lips.
i found dat so hard ta believe.
because his kiss belonged to me.
how cld an angel break my heart.
y din he catch my falling star.
i wish i din wish so hard.
mayb i wished our love apart.
how cld an angel break my heart.
the past is gone.
we've been betrayed.
u're a song.
written by the hands of god.
dun go chasing waterfalls.
pls stick to the rivers and the lakes dat u're used to.
i know dat u're gonna hav it ur way or nth at all.
but i think u're moving too fast.
i want one moment in time.
when i know dat i tot i cld be.
when all of my dreams r a heartbeat away.
n the answers r all up to me.
giv me one moment in time.
when im racing with destiny.
then in that one moment of time.
i wld feel. eternity.
i wish u were here.
rahhhh
10:02 PM
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
What Hurts The Most
by Rascal FlattsI can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
But i'm doin it
It's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret
But i know if i could do it over I would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspoken
What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
And never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do
not seein that lovin you
that’s what I was tryin to do
*theres this song for parts of ur life. and this is so apt for mine. i bet the writer was thinking of me. haz. no la. but. its. really. so very nice. and. so.so.so.apt.
rahhhh
10:08 PM
Monday, May 15, 2006
pretty glad i got to talk ta lisan today.
its like ages since i like talk to her like u know long or see her for like long.
HOHO.
i lurb xiao xiao!
:)
and thank u ser tan for giving me washing powder.
haz.
can we go saka-eh in the hols miss ser tan n xiao xiao.
im going to stamp my foot n demand u all drop everything and drag yun with us ta saka-eh.
o wells.
i hva such high hopes for skit n emcee-ing.
it must b a blast.
it must.
it must work out.
it must it must.
emotions baby all we need is emotions.
BREATHE.
o wells.
8 more days. rahhhh
rahhhh
i had puffy cheeks since young as u can see.
anyways. went to sum wedding dinner today. n got so bored out. since i knew like NO ONE. yay. the food was meagre please. and. my dressing was HORRIBLE. i juz wore sth i bot like 2 years ago which i wore like 4 times in all? argh.
Mocha has puffy cheeks too.
:) rahhhh
misses.
lit ppl r weird.
some i guess.
i wan mass comm. so so so darn much.
but. i dun usually get wad i want.
i wanted st nics. then i got into cedar.
i wanted ta take lit for o's. i ended up with art.
i wanted acjc or nyjc. then i got into tj.
i wanted ta drop econs. dropped math instead.
see how i always end up not gettin wad i desire.
sex education is like huh? as in dey HAVE to teach it every yr till we get into uni isit.
grumbles.
and college clean-up is like so redundant please.
but i got so darn high after dat. so mayb it aint that useless afterall.
在你的身后时间把过去都带走
时间把镜头带走不假思索回忆不放手
好想再跟你牵着手牵着曾有过得温柔
哭过以后眼泪还是不停的流
rahhhh
well then. continue with ur freaking pretense and see how much u r loved by everyone then.
smirks.
ok. thats revengeful.
but heck i hate being treated dat way.
seriously.
u aint no big deal.
so juz lighten up please.
:)
im so darn irritated.
heck.
i dread. dread dread.
i know u dunno wad im sayin.
neva mind.
i shall go to gossip corner with rach tmrw.
rah.
i juz dun wanna do wad i wanted ta do before. yes yes im sayin this in like sum senseless fit of fury. i still like dat job. yes yes.
o wells. life still goes on though pain in the asses r such a chore to ignore. rahhhh
How do I survive living half the life that I knew,
Oh how do I get over you?
When you take away,
Everything I held to be true,
I wonder if you feel it too, do you?
o wells. monday is coming.
grumbles.
ok. at least june hols r coming too. erm 2 weeks lata?
rahness.
im a gold apple.
:)
lu yuan was good.
i like the last show!
yayness.
im so darn broke. like seriously broke.
hai.
irritating. rahhhh
its like ages since i like talk to her like u know long or see her for like long.
HOHO.
i lurb xiao xiao!
:)
and thank u ser tan for giving me washing powder.
haz.
can we go saka-eh in the hols miss ser tan n xiao xiao.
im going to stamp my foot n demand u all drop everything and drag yun with us ta saka-eh.
o wells.
i hva such high hopes for skit n emcee-ing.
it must b a blast.
it must.
it must work out.
it must it must.
emotions baby all we need is emotions.
BREATHE.
o wells.
8 more days.
rahhhh
10:45 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
nini
da xiang~~~
da xiang~~~
ni de bi zi zhe me na me chang~~~
ma ma shuo bi zi chang cai shi piao liang~~~
I JUZ CANT GET THE 'CAI SHI PIAO LIANG... ' PART. MY TUNE IS LIKE WEIRD. ARGH! JUZ LIKE HOW I CANT GET THE SPONGEBOB TUNE AT THE END.
i realised. im quite a hopeless case ah.
im not flexible. cant touch my toes for 17 yrs.
im a comp idiot.
i cant get tunes.
i cant score like EXCELLENT grades.
i aint like the prettiest girl in town.
im pretty hopeless at money matters.
i want wad i cant get.
cant get wad i want.
o ya. BUT SUMHOW OR OTHER IM SO LAUGHABLE AT.
please. cut along the dotted line.
okok.
ANYWAYS, i like da xiangs arent they liek majestic but yet benovelent looking creatures. :) i so wanna work with animals next time. but heck im not in sum sci stream.
QE cuming. HOho. SO EXCITING.
yay.
hope it all goes well.
n emcee-ing will b GOOD. real GOOD.
pray la hor pray.
n tan he yuan shld stop givin me weird cliched lines like 'hey. that was an interesting video clip'
i shld bury him in pens.
but then agin i threw a pen at him already.
n he seemed in great pain.
ok. i shld juz stop being wiolent.
o ya. n the freaking pen hit the mama at the back. heck. thank god i wasnt in sch uni.
argh! darn guilty though.
o ya. return tourism club de his 50 bucks soon or he will seriously b the one burying me in pens.
stupid balloon pimp. gosh. i wonder why in the world mr taxi uncle wans ta keep sth like that for. 100 bucks for metal he caNt even use. rahness. kill me thank u.
i love cafe cartel bread.
LOVE.
n then i get reminded by how all my relatives start saying im gettin fatter.
they hadta use the word FAT i tell u.
argh! okok. i admit my tai-er is like expanding. but please. the baby needs ta hav food ta grow. and im no evil mama. HOHO.
talking bout food. im so freaking addicted ta cadbury milk chocs.
LOVVEEEEEEEEEEEEE. no wait. my tai-er loves. HOHO.
th idea of small beryls runnin ard is amusing me. or mayb rolling ard. hahahahahaha.
hope the CO ppl r concert-ing alrite.
:)
shi shang zhi you mama hao...................
lalalalalalalalla.
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nini.
rahhhh
3:00 PM
Saturday, May 13, 2006
puffy cheeks.
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i had puffy cheeks since young as u can see.
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anyways. went to sum wedding dinner today. n got so bored out. since i knew like NO ONE. yay. the food was meagre please. and. my dressing was HORRIBLE. i juz wore sth i bot like 2 years ago which i wore like 4 times in all? argh.
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Mocha has puffy cheeks too.
:)
rahhhh
12:48 AM
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
slamdunk.
misses.
lit ppl r weird.
some i guess.
i wan mass comm. so so so darn much.
but. i dun usually get wad i want.
i wanted st nics. then i got into cedar.
i wanted ta take lit for o's. i ended up with art.
i wanted acjc or nyjc. then i got into tj.
i wanted ta drop econs. dropped math instead.
see how i always end up not gettin wad i desire.
sex education is like huh? as in dey HAVE to teach it every yr till we get into uni isit.
grumbles.
and college clean-up is like so redundant please.
but i got so darn high after dat. so mayb it aint that useless afterall.
在你的身后时间把过去都带走
时间把镜头带走不假思索回忆不放手
好想再跟你牵着手牵着曾有过得温柔
哭过以后眼泪还是不停的流
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rahhhh
10:49 PM
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
say yay.
sumtimes. u make me feel like im nothing compared to u.well then. continue with ur freaking pretense and see how much u r loved by everyone then.
smirks.
ok. thats revengeful.
but heck i hate being treated dat way.
seriously.
u aint no big deal.
so juz lighten up please.
:)
im so darn irritated.
heck.
i dread. dread dread.
i know u dunno wad im sayin.
neva mind.
i shall go to gossip corner with rach tmrw.
rah.
i juz dun wanna do wad i wanted ta do before. yes yes im sayin this in like sum senseless fit of fury. i still like dat job. yes yes.
o wells. life still goes on though pain in the asses r such a chore to ignore.
rahhhh
7:38 PM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
dream a lil dream
So how do I get over you,How do I survive living half the life that I knew,
Oh how do I get over you?
When you take away,
Everything I held to be true,
I wonder if you feel it too, do you?
o wells. monday is coming.
grumbles.
ok. at least june hols r coming too. erm 2 weeks lata?
rahness.
im a gold apple.
:)
lu yuan was good.
i like the last show!
yayness.
im so darn broke. like seriously broke.
hai.
irritating.
rahhhh
9:24 PM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
Would you be happier if you were someone together
Would the sun shine brighter if you played a bigger part
Would you be wonderful if it wasn't for the weather
You're gonna be just fine
:)
rahhhh
:)
shopping WITH MONEY wld b betta.
I dunno why the heck i am taking economics whenicant seem ta handle my own finances well.
o wells.
any sponsers?
strong craving for soba noodles now.
but sumhow i cant bring myself ta walk inot sakae and eat like ONE plate. haz. its juz awfully weird. thus, can we pls go for a sakae buffet like NEXT WEEK. before rach is broke. Hoho.
wldnt it b nice if the world was cadbury.
the addiction ta milk chocs is only gonna make my puffy cheeks puffier. but do i care.
NO.
YAY.
i need nice nice belts.
thatarent at extorbitant prices.
mayb. i juz need money falling from the sky!
aint that a wonderful tot.
which i hav repeated for like a dozen n one times.
:)
well, its good to hav hopes.
tralala.
HOHO.
this is the one stupid thing i did ages ago. when the class was all in emo period.
this. is to cheer ong weiqi up.
HOHO.
happy not.
cant stand it. i typed niu nai. then i typed milk. and out came pictures of cartons of MILK. AND SO I TYPED ENERGY. THEN CAME OUT SUM SOLAR POWER N ALL THAT KINDA CRAP. SEARCH ENGINES R SO DARN SEARCHIFYING. o wells, at least i got a pic. heh. HAPPY RITE.
and erm though its a tad small. its for leelee. haha. her junjin with short hair. he is like our BEST fren mind you. we totally know all about them. Hoho.
erm, and den it got late, n i was tired. hahaha. rahhhh
i juz wanna b appreciated more.
:) rahhhh
all i care bout is appearances n worth. allll from confimations frm others.
yes. kill me pls. im superficial n i know it.
i dun wan to.
but heck i juz feel so.
so juz kill me alrite.
quick swift painless death wld b sweet.
n then i start ta think of so many things i shld b happy bout.
n after dat cums all the qns again on how much im worth ta others.
how much gratitude. praise. recognition. reliance. i need.
yes it i, i, and i
and all my confidence juz goes tumbling down again.
sumtimes its juz tiring. ta think of wad others might think of me.
but i still care.
awfully much.
yes. i know i shld juz quit it n all.
but ya.
easier said den done.
o wells.
and so i start chanting sum encouragment to myself looking like sum total nutcase whilst zoing out into sum world of my own. with cotton candy clouds. lollipop trees n caramel apples.
lovely aint it.
shout yay with me clap ur hands n sing along please.
ahhhh lovely lovely u are doing it so well sweethearts.
there. i gave u praise i gave u encouragement. n i tried to love u.
now its ur freaking turn.
irritating.
at least i tried so hard ta always b there.
okok. as much as i sound like sum nutcase rambling incoherent tots here. i juz like ta say dat all i done for others i meant it. heck i sound like i did everything for show. when sumtimes it takes so much of me. i juz wanna do it. i juz wanna do it rite. even explaining here now that i meant it sounds fake after that delirous post above. whos ta believe. yadayada.
as i said juz kill me please. irritating.
okokokok.
so ya. lifs been good. besides erm times like the above where i hav too much time ta sit n moan n start thinkin stuff like dat up. yes yes its irritating i know.
ok. steamboat was good. specially the prawns. but thats besides the fact that TAN HE YUAN refused ta go n take more prawns for me, thats y i stopped eating. i realised tc ppl get full quite easily. rahness.
o wells. pool was ok. had fun picking whitney houstons un-singable song. and attempting ta belt out high notes. haz.
so......
pics.........
the aunty who scuttled ard gettin food for us ta cook. and cooked food as well. hahahahhahaha. jostling-auntie that managed ta get us chicken wings n chilli crab! HOHO. im sorry his face is cut off. WHO ASK HIM TA B SO TALL. knock into mrt train door then u know.
the triplets.
Rach's son. she supposedly tot him howta do the clap n giv a wide im-so-freakinghappy-even-if-u-kill-me SMILE. eh. my son taller. hahahahahahahahaha. nanny nanny poo poo. i cna imagine gordon's irritated 'wadeva lo' face if he eva sees this.
wo de er zi. who calls me niang. hahahahahahaha.
pool.
gordon's niang. zoey not tay. and beh the prawn shi fu.
yay.
so i guess. life's pretty good. especially with all dat food.
ong weiqi makes me laugh. coz zhuo ren yao shuang kuai yi dian. haz. rahhhh
Would the sun shine brighter if you played a bigger part
Would you be wonderful if it wasn't for the weather
You're gonna be just fine
:)
rahhhh
10:09 PM
breathe
sleep.is.good.:)
shopping WITH MONEY wld b betta.
I dunno why the heck i am taking economics whenicant seem ta handle my own finances well.
o wells.
any sponsers?
strong craving for soba noodles now.
but sumhow i cant bring myself ta walk inot sakae and eat like ONE plate. haz. its juz awfully weird. thus, can we pls go for a sakae buffet like NEXT WEEK. before rach is broke. Hoho.
wldnt it b nice if the world was cadbury.
the addiction ta milk chocs is only gonna make my puffy cheeks puffier. but do i care.
NO.
YAY.
i need nice nice belts.
thatarent at extorbitant prices.
mayb. i juz need money falling from the sky!
aint that a wonderful tot.
which i hav repeated for like a dozen n one times.
:)
well, its good to hav hopes.
tralala.
HOHO.
this is the one stupid thing i did ages ago. when the class was all in emo period.
this. is to cheer ong weiqi up.
HOHO.
happy not.
cant stand it. i typed niu nai. then i typed milk. and out came pictures of cartons of MILK. AND SO I TYPED ENERGY. THEN CAME OUT SUM SOLAR POWER N ALL THAT KINDA CRAP. SEARCH ENGINES R SO DARN SEARCHIFYING. o wells, at least i got a pic. heh. HAPPY RITE.
and erm though its a tad small. its for leelee. haha. her junjin with short hair. he is like our BEST fren mind you. we totally know all about them. Hoho.erm, and den it got late, n i was tired. hahaha.
rahhhh
7:32 PM
Friday, May 05, 2006
dreams last for so long. even after ure gone
too much wishful thinking harms my brain cells.i juz wanna b appreciated more.
:)
rahhhh
9:17 PM
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
silver bells...
as much as i wld like ta b cheery. im sianed.all i care bout is appearances n worth. allll from confimations frm others.
yes. kill me pls. im superficial n i know it.
i dun wan to.
but heck i juz feel so.
so juz kill me alrite.
quick swift painless death wld b sweet.
n then i start ta think of so many things i shld b happy bout.
n after dat cums all the qns again on how much im worth ta others.
how much gratitude. praise. recognition. reliance. i need.
yes it i, i, and i
and all my confidence juz goes tumbling down again.
sumtimes its juz tiring. ta think of wad others might think of me.
but i still care.
awfully much.
yes. i know i shld juz quit it n all.
but ya.
easier said den done.
o wells.
and so i start chanting sum encouragment to myself looking like sum total nutcase whilst zoing out into sum world of my own. with cotton candy clouds. lollipop trees n caramel apples.
lovely aint it.
shout yay with me clap ur hands n sing along please.
ahhhh lovely lovely u are doing it so well sweethearts.
there. i gave u praise i gave u encouragement. n i tried to love u.
now its ur freaking turn.
irritating.
at least i tried so hard ta always b there.
okok. as much as i sound like sum nutcase rambling incoherent tots here. i juz like ta say dat all i done for others i meant it. heck i sound like i did everything for show. when sumtimes it takes so much of me. i juz wanna do it. i juz wanna do it rite. even explaining here now that i meant it sounds fake after that delirous post above. whos ta believe. yadayada.
as i said juz kill me please. irritating.
okokokok.
so ya. lifs been good. besides erm times like the above where i hav too much time ta sit n moan n start thinkin stuff like dat up. yes yes its irritating i know.
ok. steamboat was good. specially the prawns. but thats besides the fact that TAN HE YUAN refused ta go n take more prawns for me, thats y i stopped eating. i realised tc ppl get full quite easily. rahness.
o wells. pool was ok. had fun picking whitney houstons un-singable song. and attempting ta belt out high notes. haz.
so......
pics.........
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the aunty who scuttled ard gettin food for us ta cook. and cooked food as well. hahahahhahaha. jostling-auntie that managed ta get us chicken wings n chilli crab! HOHO. im sorry his face is cut off. WHO ASK HIM TA B SO TALL. knock into mrt train door then u know.
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the triplets.
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Rach's son. she supposedly tot him howta do the clap n giv a wide im-so-freakinghappy-even-if-u-kill-me SMILE. eh. my son taller. hahahahahahahahaha. nanny nanny poo poo. i cna imagine gordon's irritated 'wadeva lo' face if he eva sees this.
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wo de er zi. who calls me niang. hahahahahahaha.
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pool.
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gordon's niang. zoey not tay. and beh the prawn shi fu.
yay.
so i guess. life's pretty good. especially with all dat food.
ong weiqi makes me laugh. coz zhuo ren yao shuang kuai yi dian. haz.
